Over a year ago I was involed with a JW who becouse of a board asked for my help leaving the truth. It is a long story and I will not get into it.
It took me over six nonths to convince her to go to a church as the WT had convinced her that saton was inside. Sitting besides me in the begining of
the service she was litterly shanking and by the end she had carmed realizing this was truly God house. On the way out the Paster said to her, Mary
God always loved you, But today he has some spical love for you. This is what she always wanted to know, that God loved her for herself, not for the
number meeting she went to or the number of service hour she put in. She broke down crying in the car.
The bottem line is Being a JW you never know if you were worthy of Gods love. So what ever path you chose to take at this point, althow it may not
ease it will all work out in the end becouse you know know that God truly loves you.